The last few weeks have been crazy as fuck, but I am in such a better place than I was 3 weeks ago. Crazy the difference it makes when you just put something out there in the open you know? Tell someone you’re not happy at the moment and see how much talking it out helps.
So if you read my shitty little posts you’ll probably know that I’ve been trying to bust by bum to find a job that’ll let me come home and study and chase my goals. But I’ve actually gotten to the point where I have decided to leave my current job working away after this stint regardless of if I have another job and FUUUUUUUCK MEE it feels good. I’m not going to go into crazy details but my number one and I discussed a lot and realised we can do it, we set a back up plan if shit doesnt go the right way, but this means I can come home!
Now I’m just shitting myself about handing my 2 weeks notice in.. What do I say without sounding like a fuck stick? “Hey mate, um yeah nah I’m out. Here’s my two weeks notice”. That might work… I hate dissapointing people so I think I’m dreading to see if my boss is dissappointent because knowing me I’ll freak out and say “HaHa nah just kidding I’ll never leave”. Then I’ll walk out of his office wanting to headbutt a cactus…
I’m one day in now so I’ve got 13 more, I still feel a bit un easy about everything but I think I’ll feel a lot better once I hand my notice in and everything is finalised. It is such a weird feeling knowing I get to be home every night to be honest, Like I cant remember what it’s like and I dont think people realise how lucky they are to be able to see their loved ones every day. I hate the fact that for out of every year I am away at work for 8 months, that’s 36 weeks, that’s 252 days, and thats FULL DAYS, yep 24 hour days, roughly 6,048 hours.. That’s a long fucking time..
Okay so I’m just adding this little paragraph a day after this was all written becauseeeeeeee, I handed in my notice yesterday and it went really well, the boss said he wishes he made the choice I’m making when he had the chance to, which made me feel really good about my decission. You know in Aladdin when he wishes genie free? That is honestly the best way I can describe how I feel right now, and it is GREAT!
I just want everyone to cherish every minute they have on this earth, just being born is crazy odds so we kind of owe it to the universe to be the best people we can be. Do what makes you happy, ask that girl out, book that trip to America, write thst book you’ve always wanted to. Don’t let shit get in your way. make it happen. You’ll look back in 10 years and be like “Fuck me that idiot was right” (That idiot being me of course).
Let me know your thoughts, or if you’ve ever been in a similar situation and how did it work out for you?